April 04, 2013
A decade old! Almost!
OH! Would you believe that I've been keeping this blog for a whole decade soon??? You're right. Nobody needs to believe that, because a glance to the right hand side is proof that I have come from twenty-two(plus) to thirty-two(plus)!
Does this call for some sort of celebration? I'm just trying to justify giving myself a nice treat. But, know what, never mind.
Still, it would be very nice to read some encouraging comments or congratulations for (at least) keeping at one thing for 1 decade, if you happen to be reading this.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:23
One of those conversations...
me: So, are you confident that you would be even better than the husband that I'm supposed to have?
em: I am already better.
me: Hmm?
em: I already win. Simply because I exist. Those are qualities, just qualities that he would have, but he doesn't even exist. I already exist here.
Emman says the most surprisingly romantic thing when he least prepares for it. The kind of romantic that succeeds more effortlessly with the existentialist in me, than with the critical and disillusioned one.
But it's really amusing and rather hilarious (not to mention sadistically shiok) to see how he tries to formulate something romantic to say to me, on-the-spot. He looks like he had too much fibre and too little water. Like, it is the most challenging thing to mouth. Unfortunately, despite the great effort, with a disillusioned and critical girlfriend like me, the most sculpted romantic paragraph would often fall to the side of being a cliche (and evokes an eyes-rolling reaction). haha.
But that's precisely why we would do better than the couple in my destiny. Because in life, it's happier to want what you already have than to keep hankering for something that you want but not have.
We have already found and been found. We are already here. For each other.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:19
Of work and being queen
Oh, so long since I last posted.
The fact is, I have been going to the library more in the past three months than I've ever been in the last 5 years.
Magazines of Interior design, Bridal and wedding, Health and fitness and even National Geographic have been on my read list while in the library. And I've paid countless times of $1.55 reservation fee for resource books related on behaviour therapy and teaching strategies for children with autism.
So, as far as self-upgrading is concerned, I think I'm making pretty reasonable headway for this year.
Career-front, it seems like the circumstances are pointing me to a freelancing arrangement. To be honest, it makes better time sense and income sense, since I have come to realise that I'm in a position where experience and qualifications do not match and thus, neither would the salary range. Once again, I'm just trying to believe that it is what has always been in store for me. Just that this time round, I know better than to spread myself too thin. Especially not when I'm still anticipating for good news of my M.Edun application. So, stay calm and stay positive till June, I guess.
xxx
So, Emman and I have started to look into wedding venues for the evening banquet. I don't quite understand why there is a need for the banquet, a Chinese one too! But, I guess there is no harm in looking around before we even decide if we are going to go ahead with it. I mean, it's still something different to do on weekends, visiting hotel ballrooms and for my boyfriend to get excited over the wedding preparations.
As for the bride's choice of gowns... pardon me but I don't quite understand why other girls want to look or feel like a princess on what would possibly be the most tiring day of their lives. Personally, I would choose 'Queen' over 'Princess'. haha, that's just like me, right? I mean, why be the princess when you can be the queen? Anyway! So, I decided that the perfect gown would be one that makes me feel like a queen. Well, and the groom-to-be would be quick to add, 'elegant'. So, that's what we are going to aim for - 'Elegant Queen'.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:09
Also in this eden
Even before
other edens
Kudos